Hi blogosphere,
I’ve been thinking a lot recently, and I realized just how much life lives me rather than the other way around. I guess this is an easy thing to happen, especially for a stay at home mom. It seems as if there is one “emergency” after another, and I spend my life putting out fires rather than living consciously. (I believe Franklin Covey would have a field day organizing my life!)
And it strikes me as sad, this state of being lived rather than living. We are only given one opportunity, and all too often, we let that opportunity slip away.
Now I am one who drifts towards extremes frequently, and I do now want that to happen here. I spent too many years of my life as a compulsive worker. I only saw value in myself and in my life if I was being “productive.” And the problem with that was my definition of productivity — making money and advancing my working.
I am very happy to announce that after years of soul searching, I seem to have changed my definition of what life is about. I now see that we work in order to live the life we want. It’s important to be passionate about our career, but it’s just an aspect of who we are.
But back to my reason for this post in the first place. I want to stop letting life live me. I want to stop that feeling at the end of the day of not even knowing how I spent my time. And there are a few ways that I can do this.
First, I need to get rid of the constant access to the internet. I tend to spend every free second on my phone checking my email, facebook, or pinterest accounts. This just leaves me frustrated because it’s almost like an addiction rather than a fun break. I need to limit my use of those to when the girls are asleep, and preferably, I will only access them on my computer rather than my phone.
Second, I need to stop eating out. This is wrecking havoc on my life. More about that in a future post.
Third, I need to be more strict about a routine. I need to plan a general routine that allows me time to focus on what I value. This is very hard as a stay at home mom and will be quite the challenge, but I think I can do it.
Here’s to new beginnings and living the life I want.